The Big O Diary – Round Three
November 27, 2013
It’s official. MG has lost her melanoma mojo. It has been whisked away by the Big O. Otherwise known as ovarian cancer. That nasty cancer has reared her ugly head again – for the third time.
Most of you are aware that while I was in remission from stage three melanoma, I was diagnosed with stage four ovarian cancer. It was caught on a CT scan. Talk about a total YIKES. That was two and a half years ago. Since then, I have had two major surgeries – a full hysterectomy and a bilateral mastectomy, countless biopsies, and two separate rounds of chemo. Along with the genetic testing that proved I carry the BRCA2 mutation. Basically this just means that I am much more susceptible to cancer. Duh.
A couple of weeks ago I had my quarterly bloodwork and a scan, and sure enough, it is back. Floating around in my body a mere six months after I finished my last round of chemo. Didn’t even make it to a year this time.
Forgive the sarcasm, but I am kind of over it at this point. Thinking I should change my name from Melanoma Girl to Malignant Girl.
My oncologist presented us with three options. First, a clinical trial. Next a drug that is an antibody, not a chemotherapy drug, but has shown success when treating ovarian cancer. Third, and my fave – good old chemo. The problem with chemo is that while it does knock it back down, it does not stay down permanently. It is just a band-aid at this point. The periods of remission are getting shorter and shorter. So we need to look at other solutions.
I started the clinical trial this week. Wouldn’t you know the first full day I end up in the ER? Allergic reaction to the new meds (kind of seemed obvious when it became hard to swallow). Not sure if I can continue on them or not. We are meeting with the doc again on Friday to revaluate.
Soooo, needless to say I have not been a happy camper lately. As you know, this whole cancer thing can be a bit of a downer. Even the normally plucky MG has been feeling the effects of this challenging journey.
So what next for MG? As I mentioned, I kind of feel like I have lost my melanoma mojo a bit. It has been very difficult to focus on the website, FB page and planning lately. I still truly believe that awareness and prevention are the keys to reducing occurrences of this deadly disease. Everything we have done up to this point has hopefully helped to change at least one person’s perception about being safe in the sun.
The last thing I want to do is abandon ship. No worries – I am not going to do that! I have been giving it a lot of thought, and if you will allow me to, I may want to segue from melanoma to ovarian for a bit. For those of you who have been following my page and website for a while, you know that I started a blog titled “The Big O Diary” a couple of years ago after I was diagnosed with ovarian. I am thinking of reviving that blog and maybe even starting a FB page with that title.
I need an outlet for this disease. I had been hoping that if I ignored it, it would go away. No such luck. And now that it is proving to be more prevalent than the melanoma, I have to embrace it like I did with MG. No more fear. What do you think? Are you with me?
As always, I thank you for your love and support. I couldn’t have made it this far without all of you. I genuinely appreciate all of your well wishes and prayers. Hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving with family and friends. Most importantly, blessings to those of you who are going through your own cancer journeys, and all the best for a happy and healthy holiday season.
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